Hello!! Soo this will be my first post ever. Now I'm not so sure about how to use this, so if it's ugly, you have every right to criticize, lol. Now let's get into the topic of today that my first person in singular grammatically feels the neeeeed to rant about. Lately, I've felt that I'm not using my time properly, like I'm not living the "Golden years" as it's supposed to be. My knees still work, and you know stuff like that. The things adults typically say, so you live your life to the fullest.
Trust me, I wish I were an 80s kid to be a teen in the 90s, and I know I know nowadays we have a looot of beneficial things, just now I am listening to Tyler, The Creator (love his music btw). However, my problem is that all day is spent watching TikTok, and yes, my FYP is filled with history and data, as well as future interests, and I have great grades (which I still feel isn't enough, but that's a topic for the next post). But I just feel sooo empty, like I tried "quitting" TikTok, but I didn't want the strikes with my friends to end, and yes, I have other hobbies like guitar, which I'm learning, and I'm trying to start volunteering to at least bring something good to this world and so much more stuff that I am looking forward to or already do. But other than that, it's just coming home from school, sleep, TikTok, stress, homework, eat, and sleep again. The definition of boring. It's literally the reason the blog started, so my life could be at least a little bit more interesting and not just filled with short videos that oversaturate your brain with doses of dopamine like a drug.
My parents tell me well, at your age I started to work and blah blah blah. You see their albums filled with pictures that, for a reason, make you nostalgic as you start to idealize the past. Trust me, my best friend Andrea and I have the same feeling. That's why might be at school, you'll see us running around in circles just to create a new memory of us together, something that makes you feel alive, untangible but beautiful. There's so much out there to explore to fight for, and I just feel like I can't do it all. I know I have potential, but would there be a world for me to grow up in? How many years do we have to be alive? I just want to live my life to the fullest, to bring something good into the world, and be a good person. But this world ain't like my parents at my age. Now we get excited over a text or a like from the person we like. Is just Empty.
In conclusion, to make this short because I know your attention span is reallyy bad. In my personal and totally right (insert sarcasm) opinion, we feel this nostalgia and emptiness for old times because we don't really have much time to create "real" connections, or at least that's what I feel. But I will encourage you to try to create new memories, and believe me, they don't need to be that extraordinary. My dearest memory with my best friend Andrea is just running around while it was raining and sing singin' in the Rain and just not give an F about it. And just as how the person a Nun prays to Adios.
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